This song was born in some ridiculous hour of the night, when for me, true openness so often hits. It speaks honestly of the shameful thoughts we Christians often can have about wanting to get on with our own plans for life without consulting God, in the mistaken belief that doing so may result in a better future in terms of the things we think we want to feature in it. Of course, in reality we know that God’s plans are the best for us, but every now and again, we get frustrated playing the waiting game. The song also gives a victory shout, proclaiming, that despite all the wrong we’ve done in chasing society’s stamps of happiness, all we are bound yet to do, and despite all the devil’s temptations, we remain changed inside.

Maybe I can breathe without You?
Sing a song of love without you?
Maybe I can pray without You
Hoping some power somewhere hears me?
Maybe I’m a fool to count on You?
Can I see Your face?
Or maybe I should lift my eyes and see –
You’re in front of me!

I’m crying out for Your presence in my life!
And despite all I am, despite I’ve said and done,
You make me whole like You said You would.
The devil may tempt me but I stay changed inside.

Maybe I can live without You?
Make my plans and do not ask You?
Maybe then I’ll get the things I choose (and when I want them)?
Or maybe I should stir my knowledge of You –
For Your Word is clear;
You came to give us life, a life that’s full,
So I trust in You.

I’m crying out for Your presence in my life,
Despite all I am, despite I’ve said and done,
You make me whole like You said You would.
The devil may tempt me but I stay changed inside.